I have pondered some big questions lately. What is my place in this world? How can I help the hurting? What does God have for me to accomplish? I am different than the average; how can I really be used?
As I have pondered all this, There is one solid conclusion I have come to. Jesus. Jesus is the only answer. He defines my place in this world, He is the only answer for the hurting, God has much for me to accomplish because of my faith in Jesus and He has led me to embrace my differences and realize that my differences equate to Him being able to use me in a different way. God wired me the way I am and He has purpose in the way He designed me.
I dont know exactly what all He will call me to do, but He has been lovingly revealing to me over the past few years that I am someone He can and will use to accomplish His purposes. He once told me, “what you see as your weaknesses, I see as your strengths.” He has been growing my faith tremendously over these past few years as I have stepped out in faith and obedience and as I have realized my complete dependence on Him. I’m not afraid because I know He is with me. I have complete trust in Him and He gives me strength. When I face worries and uncertainty, I know that because I am submitted to and trusting Him everything is working out for good. I walk by faith and not by sight.
When I was just starting my faith journey, a little over five years ago, He gave me a vision of how my journey would look and He gave me a ‘life scripture’:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will direct your paths.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)
I saw a vision of an incomplete brick path in the process of being laid. It looked rather rough as if it had been there waiting to be worked on a while. At the time I received the vision, I was having worry over stepping outside of His will – of missing it or taking a wrong step. He told me that I do not have to fear taking a misstep because, while a step off the path would cause delay, as I focused on Him and trusted Him He would rework the path so my feet would be on it once again. He showed me my feet on the incomplete path and I saw my foot take a step and as I took the step He laid a brick below it before my foot hit the ground. As I took the step, the path no longer looked old and abandoned! He was completely directing and establishing my path as I took a step.
I have been seeing this vision take place in my life. He speaks something to me and as I take a step in faith and obedience, He truly directs my path. I see good come out of these steps of obedience. I see His strength overcoming my weaknesses in these steps of obedience. I see His purposes being accomplished in these steps of obedience.
I just recognized this right now, seeing that unfinished path that hadn’t been worked on in a while was an invitation. It was an invitation for me to be a willing servant, for me to be obedient in lifting my foot to take any step He calls me to take. Over these past few years, I’ve had to overcome some worry and I’ve had to allow Him to do some much needed growth in me, and now I’m at that place where nothing holds me back. I am willing to step as He leads.
May His good, pleasing and perfect will always be done in me and through me. For His glory!