Not a diversion, but a part of His beautiful masterpiece

I sat crying yesterday as I re-read the pages of a journal I had started in February about this wonderful new season God was leading me into.  A season of discovery, a season of healing, a season of running forward into the plans and purposes He designed me for.

As I read the pages of that journal it wasn’t tears of disappointment or tears of discouragement; it was tears of awe in God.  A reminder just how much He loves each and every one of us and looks upon each of us individually.  As I had written my thoughts on paper in February, I didn’t know what was coming up in the world, but He knew. As I was reading my own words I realized just how relevant they are for today.  He was settling things on my heart that I never would have imagined would bring comfort to me as I sat on Easter Sunday reflecting on the past month.

It’s been a month to the day when I got the notice that schools would be closing for two weeks, and on that day I couldn’t have known what that notification was the beginning of – where we were headed as a community, as a nation, as a world.  God knew.

Today was to be the start of a “week of ministry” for healing God revealed to me in January of this year that I need.  See below excerpt from my February 1 blog post titled “This time of seeking… Full access to my heart, I’m in awe.” describing this healing:

So, during this time of seeking He has revealed much to me. He has revealed my need for deeper healing and He has said I have been progressing and progressing over these past few years, which is great, but I have run into a wall and have progressed as far as I will progress until that wall is broken down. God has revealed this wall to me and He has revealed that now is His timing to break it down. Praise God!

When I wrote that blog post on February 1, I was excited that April 13, 2020 would be the start of a week of Him breaking down that wall.  Such a short time away and I was full of anticipation and excitement!  On February 25, about this wall, in my personal journal, I wrote, “I have to be patient. He is going to break it down. My RTF week of ministry is April 13-17. That is not too far off. I can be patient. I can wait on the Lord. This will come soon, very soon.”

The Lord had spoken so clearly in January as I was seeking Him in prayer and fasting and I was excited about all I was hearing.  He had put it on my heart to travel this year, something I have never done, and explore the beauty of His creation.  Another excerpt from my February 1 post:

During this time of seeking He has been telling me now is a time for discovery – discovery of who I really am in Him and more discovery of who He is. He has put it on my heart to travel with my son and, in doing so, He tells me it will help in this discovery of who I am and more of who He is.

The following is very personal and I’m being very transparent as I share this, but what the Lord has shown me, it is truth for all of you too.  I hope you can be encouraged by what I’m sharing.  If someone who doesn’t know the Lord happens to read this, I hope you can see a glimpse of what it’s like to have Him by your side.  For those who are walking with the Lord, I hope my own personal experience is a reminder to You that He is in control; He sees you, He is near to you and He is working all things for your good.  He looks upon each of us individually.  He loves each and every one of us in such an amazing way we can’t fully fathom it.  This level of detail He has put forth in my life, He does the same for you; you just have to have your eyes and heart open to see His hand in your life.  He is there and every word He speaks is truth.  He truly is working all things for your good.

So, here it is (if you can read my sloppy writing):

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I hadn’t picked up that journal in fifteen days until yesterday when I decided to go back and process anything I had heard from God since beginning the journal, which I had started in early February specifically to take note of and process anything God might be speaking to me.  I got to these two pages and the tears flowed.  A note of what I really thought today would look like…  my healing.  This part He led me to write, “His ways are higher… When I look around at this world, there is so much beyond our understanding… Everything in His Word, even when it is complex and beyond our limited spectrum, is complete and solid truth.”  Such truth for today.  My own words, “I can be patient.  I can wait on the Lord.”  Such a timely reminder for today.  The scripture He placed on my heart on February 26: “Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!”  (Psalm 27:14 NKJV).  There couldn’t have been a better scripture for me to read yesterday. 

These two pages from my own journal are just what God wanted me to be reminded of today and I am thankful to Him that He led me to put those words on paper, when I didn’t even realize that today there would be significance in what I had written down back in February.  God is so good and faithful!  This is a perfect example of how He cares so deeply for us and comforts us and guides us.  He is so good!

There was a potential I could have woke up discouraged this morning as I am not where I thought I would be today (in Tennessee starting my week of ministry and having that wall broke down in the way I thought it would look).  You could potentially be in that place of discouragement right now as some things you were hoping for haven’t turned out the way you thought they would.  But, please be encouraged, God is in control and everything you may see as falling apart or as a diversion, may very well be a big part in the masterpiece God is favorably working in your life.  Don’t let what you are facing discourage you or cause you doubt; God is still working for your good and He will fulfill every promise He has spoken.

Glory and praise to God!

 


— So I have to add this, as God just comforted me even as I am reviewing what I just wrote and listening to worship.  I have the Spotify free version so I do not choose the song and this is no coincidence.  This song just came on called “Take Courage” and the lyrics she is singing go along with the scripture I just shared above from my February 26 journal entry.  God is so good!  He comforts us and He is always near!

“Take courage my heart
Stay steadfast my soul
He’s in the waiting
He’s in the waiting
Hold onto your hope
As your triumph unfolds
He’s never failing
He’s never failing”

(from song, Take Courage by Bethel Music, Kristene DiMarco, from the album “Starlight.”)

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All scriptures from Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV® Copyright ©1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 or New King James Version®. Copyright © 1982 by Thomas Nelson

Trusting God’s way, not our own…

God could have immediately delivered the Israelites from their enemy (the Egyptians).  He could have done this in an instant, in the same fashion He destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah in an instant, but instead He worked their deliverance in such a way that they had to face hardship in the process.

When Moses and Aaron first told the Israelites that God saw their turmoil in Egypt and would deliver them, they bowed down and worshiped the Lord.  Isn’t that quite often our response when God reveals to us He is about to make a powerful move in our lives?  We praise Him and worship Him and are excited about what He is going to do.  Then, somewhere along the way, while God is still actively working behind the scenes making the move He said He would, we get discouraged in the waiting and so often trials come against us.

Right after Moses and Aaron revealed to the Israelites they would be delivered and right after they had worshiped the Lord, the Egyptians increased their workload and beat them for not meeting quota.  Then they questioned Moses and Moses in turn questioned God, “Why have You brought trouble on this people?”  We so often question God when we see things aren’t going the way we, in our narrow mindedness, thought would be the best case scenario; all the while amidst our questioning, God is still at work beyond what we can see.

We have to trust God’s way and God’s timing. Yes, He could deliver us from all our troubles in an instant, but there is so much more at stake, so much more than meets the eye, so often a powerful work being done within us through the troubles we face.

I can personally say I look back on all of my trials I have faced since knowing the Lord and I can see much needed growth that God did in me through each and every one.  I wouldn’t trade that for anything.  I’m thankful for the trials!  Part of our testimony which leads others into the loving arms of our Savior is the troubles we’ve been through and how we have overcome them by God’s grace and love.

We know that after the Israelites went through much trial and tribulation, God delivered them from the Egyptians just as He said He would.  He could have delivered them in a moment, but would they have known their need for God in the long run; would they have appreciated the depth of it, or would they have seen it as a simple thing?  God was growing their faith in Him through their adversity, just as He grows our faith in Him.

If you are facing trials, I encourage you that God’s Word is true and that includes for you.  His Word never fails!  You can walk by faith, not by sight, knowing He is working all things for your good!  We have an eternal home and the trials we face in this life are not only growing us to be able to accomplish the plans and purposes God has for us here, but also preparing us to be ready to step into eternity with Him someday.  Keep pressing forward.  God is faithful!

 


By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh’s daughter.  He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the fleeting pleasures of sin.  He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of greater value than the treasures of Egypt, because he was looking ahead to his reward.  By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the king’s anger; he persevered because he saw Him who is invisible. (Hebrews 11:24-26)

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the l hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. (Romans 5:1-4)

For we live by faith, not by sight. (2 Corinthians 5:7)

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. (James 1:1-3)

Call upon Me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me. (Psalm 50:15)

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. (Psalm 27:14)

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All scriptures from Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV® Copyright ©1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 or New King James Version®. Copyright © 1982 by Thomas Nelson

Facing a fork in the road?

You’ve felt a stir within you and you know God is getting ready to make a move in your life; you just don’t know when and where.  Then it happens!  You see a path in front of you with a fork in the road. You can go left or right; both paths are uncertain. Which do you choose?

I’ve come across several people lately who are facing this scenario.  It’s a tough one.  Sometimes God lays the path right in front of you and you just have to keep stepping, but sometimes there’s a fork and you have to make a decision one way or the other.  As I so often say, if you are submitted to and trusting God, you can be assured that you are right where you need to be at any given moment.  You just have to be willing to take any step He leads you to take.

When there’s two promising but uncertain paths presented before you, the best response you can take is to pray, pray, pray.  As you pray it is going to settle on your heart which path you are to take.  Whichever path you choose will be the right one.  His Word is true; He’s directing your path so you have nothing to fear in making the decision.  Take the step you feel most led to take and you can have peace as you trust that God is truly directing your path and since He is you know that He will present a closed door if you’re starting to take a wrong step.

So, prayerfully make the decision and don’t be afraid to take the step!  As you are trusting Him and submitting to Him, you can be assured He will not let you go any way that is outside of His will for you.

Be blessed!


Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” (Isaiah 30:21)

“Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and He will establish your plans.” (Proverbs 16:3)

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All scriptures from Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV® Copyright ©1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 or New King James Version®. Copyright © 1982 by Thomas Nelson

God’s great love!

“The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” (Deuteronomy 31:8)

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” (Isaiah 41:10)

“Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me.” (Psalm 27:10)

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:38-39)

“The Lord looks from heaven; He sees all the sons of men. From the place of His dwelling He looks on all the inhabitants of the earth; He fashions their hearts individually; He considers all their works.” (Psalm 33:13-15)

“But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:8)

“For You created my inmost being; You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” (Psalm 139:13-14)

God’s truth about His love for YOU. Straight from the Word.

Praise God for His unfailing love!

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All scriptures from Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV® Copyright ©1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 or New King James Version®. Copyright © 1982 by Thomas Nelson